When I left the hospital yesterday I was conflicted. I had seen my HSW before lunch and he was lucid and talking and I gave him a kiss and told him I’d see him again later. About an hour after that is when he slipped into unconsciousness. I was torn but I had decided that I had said my goodbyes and would not see him again. He was moved him to a private room during the time that I was still visiting with his family, so before I left I was able to give him another kiss, but because of my emotional state I was not able to tell him what I wanted him to know. That was the reason for my conflicted feelings.
When I stopped by the hospital today around lunch my plans were to say a quick hello, give him a kiss, and hug his family, and get out. I sure did receive much more than that — I found peace there.
Shelly (my BFF’s sister and my surrogate sister) and I found ourselves there at lunch when the Judge’s family needed some time away from the hospital to get lunch. She and I sat and visited with each other and him, held his hand, told each other Judge Warner stories, and let him know that we were going to do our best to take care of his youngest daughter, Jacquie, as well as his other kids and grandkids. Before I left I let him know how much he meant to me, how much I loved him, how much I was going to miss him, and that I was going to be okay without him.
It was about 10 minutes later as I was sitting in the hospital parking lot calling other friends to give them an update that I got the call that he had passed away. About 10 minutes after he passed the heavens opened up over the hospital and we got some well needed rain. I have no doubt he’s already up there issuing orders.
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Thinking about you. Sending hugs your way! Love ya!
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